An end

The post title seems to be too serious
Though it is just an end to a semester haha!

But what if it's an end to many other things but not just a semester?
An end of 3 years studying at Leisure Commerce Square?
For the new start at new campus next year?
An end of days sitting up there enjoying unforgettable memories?
And just sometimes can get back?
What if it's an end of the whole 4 years studying in Malaysia?
It would be the most miserable ending...

I keep reminding me everyday to treasure all the remaining days, chances, and friends
Some of them are transferred to Australia next year
How many of them will still be here for graduation ceremony?
Anyway, is still too early to think of it
Just another thing whenever I think of, I feel sad
And happy too when I know I'm lucky enough to have chance to be here, to get to know them from FICM until now

End year is coming
The Observer has been going on well since the day it was created
The blog that I check and update everyday along with the owner
The 1st blog that I feel proud of not for only me but also for her for being able to share her passion and at least feel happy because of it everyday
Smiles are there to be discovered every single minute by looking at it
Such an indescribable feeling

I'm going to meet you soon
After more than 1 year which I think is long enough
To get back some of mine and give to you something I was supposed to give before it came to an end
I just have to prepare to talk to you seriously this time
I'm, somehow, still afraid to meet you
Since that feeling of being your 'life vest' never stops chasing me...

My beloved scorpio

Yesterday this year was so different from last year, many things happened pulled me away from the feeling that I supposed to have as strong as before. And at the same time, many things happened from many people surrounding me remind me to treasure more, more and more every single thing they did for me...

Just wanna say thanks for every concern and love from everyone
For yesterday...

And today I wish to say thank you again for your semangat funny clip, professional model, props and costume haha
And of course because today is ur day too...

Wish you fat birthday hohoho and smile as always
Love, Nhũn.

Yesterday

Yesterday...
You put me on your shoulders and brought me around the house when I was small
You cried and grabbed my hands to go with you
You sat and talked to me when we were having duck porridge
And you were also the only one who ate that with me, and peeled duck meat for me
You gave me a wild fruit small bag as an apology
You saw me off once at the airport
You told me not to worry anything between you and her
You saw me arrive once at the airport
You, she and I went to have lobster porridge, the shop I really liked but closed
You gave me 3 pieces of 100USD but I had to use all
You asked us everyday what we wanted to eat
You said that you had plenty of VN instant noodles and would send to me if I wanted
You and I went to watch football live once
I happily saw you arrive from oversea countries back home
I just ate at the beef noodles shop which is named your name
...

Today...
I'm still very alike you in many senses
My life still goes on
But your life doesn't anymore...

For you, in my memories...
Rest in peace, dad...

Imperfection

Drew in May 2009
Live drawing 1

Drew in May 2009
Live drawing 2

Drew in June 2009

Drew in July 2009

My drawings
Normal pen and paper
Random moment
Random place
Full of mistakes, scribbles and deformed lines
Yet a dedication I wish to leave
For you

Festival

The word that I don't know how it is like
The word that requires many people to make it really sound like
The word that brings happiness

I've never been able to really enjoy any festival
Not New Year, Christmas, nor Mid-Autumn

Yesterday
All that I remember and have been through
Was slightly different
A real Moon Cake festival held by Chinese
Though I happened to be the only one that don't really know their language
But I enjoyed and silently fit in as I always do

I love that kind of lantern
So simple, fragile yet very interesting to play
I guess I missed it when I was small
Or is just because I don't remember how it was like?

A combination of moments
Laughter, silence and observation
Even the moment we didn't say anything but just looked at the lantern that was hang on the tree and the candles burning
It also could convey message

The festival that I know
Which brings people closer

Tears (translated version)

-January 2009-

Because of the time you silently drop
The lost soul that I found, now I lose again
Like sand, my finger was rushing to hold back
But it keeps falling just like you do

If someday you become so dry
And my eyes, will look around searching
Suppose that they secretly make a swing
For the sadness to fly away

You are warm, but now also become cold
And I keep running around searching
To find the place that I can hide
And warm you up again

My hand, has been strong for so many times
It won't be afraid of storm or any up and down
But now it keeps aching
When I myself catch the last of you

If someday you don't drop anymore
And my eyes, will still look around searching
Though you're no longer here
Just the sadness that can't fade away...

When you still can cry, it's still a happiness

Bài thơ để lại

-July 2008-

Có khác gì đâu 1 kiếp đời ngắn ngủi
Em nhỏ anh to biết dường nào
Em giàu anh nghèo có chi khác
Em có, anh không có
Những đôi điều trái ngược

Tay em nhỏ đã chai sần thô ráp
Bản thì to mà ngón lại chẳng dài
Tìm tay anh để đan vào hàn lại
Mảnh sẹo đời có dễ nào nguôi

Anh khác rồi
Một thời em gìn giữ
Cả cuộc tình những tưởng chẳng hề phai
Của ngày xưa nhìn anh trong ký ức
Tìm lại hòai dẫu biết chẳng được đâu

Em khác rồi
Một thời anh đã có
Cả 1 vòng kim chỉ theo thời gian
Cả tình yêu em mong mỏi chờ đợi
Cả cuộc đời nếm đủ mọi niềm đau

Em mất anh 1 chiều không trở gió
Ngỡ từ biệt là hội ngộ về sau...