A year+

Your birthday is coming in 15 days and I was supposed to be in Poland as planned but couldn't make it due to AVIA situation.

This year, I don't have the courage to prepare anything for you anymore. 'Cz I know for sure it will break my heart while doing so. How I wish I could draw something again after the drawing I made for you last year birthday. I tried and tried many times later, but I failed. There's no inspiration and every lines remind me of how happy I was back then, not broken pieces like now.

I wonder and recount, how many chances that we got together, to meet each other face to face, chances to only maybe even talk online. All of them, besides the beautiful memories, things happen all the way just to lead to 1 conclusion: it's pushing you further and further away from my reach. And the best I could do to heal myself everyday is keep reminding me that "everything happens for some reason"

I got to know a girl who looks a bit like you - just a little bit because she looks sharper, taller, thinner and younger. Your smile is softer, you in overall looks more innocent and older, sometimes ugly when you make fun of yourself. Talking to her is like a bullet to my heart again, remind me endlessly how much I miss you, and that my heart is still with you. How pathetic...

Who can say where the road goes
Where the day flows, only time
And who can say if your love grows
As your heart chose, only time

Who can say why your heart sighs
As your love flies, only time
And who can say why your heart cries
When your love lies, only time

Who can say when the roads meet
That love might be in your heart
And who can say when the day sleeps
If the night keeps all your heart
Night keeps all your heart

Who can say if your love grows
As your heart chose
- Only time
And who can say where the road goes
Where the day flows, only time

Who knows? Only time