Goodbye

Wow, the last time I blogged was so long time ago

Things change faster than I can imagine

June 2012 - join AVIA, be one of the only 3 people of pre-opening team. My life turned upside down because of this. The project that I'm so proud of and I can talk non stop about. But it affects  my life badly in a way that I myself dont realise

Jan 2013 - broke up my 3-year-relationship. Partly it is because of my work and it seems there is no solution to solve this. I, for the first and also the last time, agree that we will go separate ways

Apr 2013 - got promoted to E-Commerce Deputy Manager. I was really happy

Oct 2013 - got promoted again to E-Commerce Manager but I dont love being this person yet. I'm trying everyday to not let them down who put trust in me for the company's future.

I only have 24 years of life until now. It may be too early to say. But the most memorable, most intense, most painful but most beautiful memory of love that I've ever had was with her. Katarzyna Bauer. I love her...

There is nothing can exquisitely hurt as loving someone who doesnt love you back. And once you recover from it all by yourself, you will learn to appreciate, be wiser and be stronger for the next time you fall in love again

"People dont cry because they are weak. They cry because they were strong for too long" - Johny Depp.

Bursted into tears in the middle of shower today when I made a decision to forget this feeling about her to focus totally on my work. I realise i was strong for too long. But there is no regret, I let her know and I tried my best for time im in Poland

Dear,

I had less than a week to be this close to you, and starting from the following week, I will had to let you go with someone may be able to take care for you better than me doing that from thousands miles away. Make a topic about something makes me hurt the most just to make sure that you are alright with her. I thought I could handle it with a normal mood, but I couldnt, it broke me into pieces when I came as a surprise for you and Adam to hug him goodbye. It was never meant for her...

When you held my hand to cross the street, when you hugged me on the bed when I was so drunk, what I wanted to do was holding you more, just a little bit longer...

"Hold, hold me for a while. I know this wont last forever. So hold, hold me tonight, before the morning takes you away"

bday of my significant other

Dear My Significant Other,

A toy for you as usual
Days to spend with you
First time experience
Miserable but happy and warm
Walk so much but not tired
Walking next to you make my tiredness go away
Only heading to the destination
Nothing can replace how it is

2 beer bottles
Limited designs
The first time I enjoy drinking that much
Knowing that I can cover for you later on
Watching you sleep soundly
Feeling you as near as it is
Hugging you and wish you morning
Brushing teeth and wiping your hair
Oh how special

There was more than what you expected for today
Which I guess there are more people that you expect the least can make you happy in such a very simple way

I'm glad I'm one of them which can enlighten your day
Well, not only today, but everyday that it can be
To see your smile, your naughtiness and your happiness

Which I know there's nothing else can replace
Hold your hand, ommmm you tight not only for today
But today give you promotion extra yea wekeke

P.S.: there's my ex-colleague has the same birthday as you (same day, same month, same year) and the character hmmmm not same hehehe

My multipurpose soul mate, happy birthday! muackssssssss ommmmmmmmmm

(weird poem, a bit like poem a bit like song..... but this is it my feeling to show how I love you :P)

Valentine

People around me asking

Where do I go?

Not hanging out?

Got any gift?

I've seen many things so called romantic

Flowers

Chocolate

Candles

Yet the romantic part in me is very simple

Is letting everyday passes by just like Valentine

Romantic stuffs don't last

But simple happiness do

Not showing off, not overwhelming, not "wow"

But something can't be bought by money

It's the love that I'm having

It's you...

"Love isnt just an one day vow, but a life time inspiration.

Im glad i wake up waking you up,

Im glad i sleep with you accompanying me regardless time and space difference

Im glad when people talk about their love ones. I have you to relate.

Im glad i've grown up with you

Im glad to have you..."

Thank you, my dear... :)

Roysbokk Rearrange

Suddenly realize it's pretty nice name

and meaningful

I'm roysbokk most of the time but rearrange I can be myself

not moody, not obsessed, not disguised

A person stays behind the screen crazily wearing the headphone without listening to music

But how many people can accept this real me?

like a puzzle box

u need to try and error to find out

where is the perfect fit

where is the possibility if u try wrongly (cause mre time to fix d puzzle --")

like a scribble

whatever you get

you gonna make use of it

and make it the best for your own

like a godfather maze board

wherever you get

you need to do something to be able to continue

easy or hard

it's where you need to go

knowing that finally you will reach

and....it's time to see doctor already

to perfectly rearrange myself

(hint is available)

Moments

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Moments are meant to be remembered

How I wish I can remember them differently

When I can say I love you at the airport for my departure

Dad...

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Moments are meant to be remembered

How I wish I can remember them differently

When I can have a "full" graduation day with you

Jie...

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Moments are meant to be remembered

How I wish I can remember them differently

When I wasn't too busy to work instead of hugging you and playing with you

Dear...

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Moments are meant to be remembered

How I wish I can om you before going back to "see my dad away"

How I wish I can stay with you when your car was broken down

How I wish I gave you a hug when you drove away

....

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